So so DEAD

My blog is so so dead and I don't know what to write here anymore. 

I have tons of story but it is better to leave it unsaid. 

So, I'm having my year end holiday and so far, it is damn boring! 

I can't go out to catch up with my friend and blah blah blah.
So now, my home is my new prison!
Everyday, I wake up and clean myself up then sit in front of the computer and eat and sleep and HELL, it is pure boredom I'm talking about.
What am I suppose to do with the rest of the following month? :(

Well, I think this is it.
Catch up with u soon,
dead and alive then dead again,
Blog. :D

Lots of love, Chelsea

Can I ask WHY?

Why do people change?

Why do people have to change?

Why can't they just remain they way they used to be?

Why do they have to make a simple relationship nor friendship this complicated?

Why do they have to make our brain twist and turn instead of stay and still?

Let me ask u WHY?

Are you sick of your life coz' its boring?

Are you mentally destructed till your brain can't functioning well enough?

Get a life and who care's about you anymore,

You want to know WHY?

Cause it all started from yourself.

All these trouble and all these mess, you created it yourself.

How I wish I can turn back time but too bad, there's no such clock that can be rewind.

So in the end, all we can do is Move On and Get a Life.

I mean you Get a Life. :)

Nothing is Easy

Nothing is Easy so don't complain so much and move on.

There's nothing we can do to about it.

Think Before You Speak/Talk/Cakap/讲话

The statement above, is so true. I couldn't agree more on that.

Think before u speak is really important coz u will never know that u might offend someone's feeling 

by saying the wrong word.

Do you want this to happen? No.

I bet most of the people on this lovely earth have gone through that feeling of being hurt by the words that came out from another opponent's mouth.

Do you know that even one wrong word or even sentence actually have the magic to destroy a relationship. :/

Okay. I don't know wat am i crapping about here. So yeah. Bye!

The Feeling Of Losing Someone U Loved is Unbearable.

Hey, it has been awhile now that I havent log into this blogger.

Well, people always says that a new month is like a new beginning.
I guess thats true though.
This month, the month of AUGUST, I've just lost an important person in my life which is my Grandfather.
He passed away on the 1st of this month at exactly 10:57.
I was totally emotionally broke down bcz i didn't even get a chance to see him alive for the last time.
Even though I didn't get a chance to see him, but I get a chance to talk to him... through mobile phone.

My grandfather was a great, funny, loving, caring etc, man.
Even though its hard to communicate with him as I don't really know how to speak bidayuh, which is saddening,
but I never give up trying to speak bidayuh to him.
I'm glad that he left peacefully and I certainly know that he's in a better place now, HEAVEN.
According to my mum, my grandfather prayed to God, thanking Him for taking good care of him all this while.
After listening to those stories, I literally broken down into tears.

Now he has gone and leaves us for one week already.
I miss him badly, so as my families and relatives.
There's nothing we can do other than pray for him.

For the past week, My family and I has been busy going up and down from home to kampung
and helped them the rest to prepare some stuff and cleaning.
Honestly, it was superb tiring and my sleeping cycle has been interrupted.
But its okay.. I should have not complain. Gosh..! :(

Things have change lately. We all know that you're happy, crazy with your love life. WE GET IT.

But do you even care about your family now?

We used to hang out together, watch movies, having dinner, and do so many other stuff together.

Now, it seems like we're no longer family. Thats what I think.

We used to talk and laugh about stupid things and stayed up late just because we wanna talk about how our day went or whatever topic we got. But now, all we do is yelling at each other and hardly have an easy conversation. You know why? Its because you are to head over heels about your love life. I don't blame you for that but for God sake, can you stop going out for just few days or even one day and spend the last few days together with your family before you go back to your awesome uni life?? I heard from someone that u said this statement : Weekends are for FAMILY: Are u really sure? Did you keep your promise [ Opps, is that statement  a promise? HAHA,]. Soon, you will leave and continue your last semester and I can foresee that you will be extremely busy and wont have the time to spare out for answering my phone callss?l. Are you looking forward to see this family to fall apart? But don't worry, falling apart is in the process already. Happy? How I wish I can turn back time and bury all the shitty memories. You may think I'm selfish and oh-you-don't-understand person, but no I AM NOT. Im just typing out how I feel, yeah, I'd rather type than talk to you about it face-to-face.

Anyway, hope you have a great time spending the last few days moment with your love one alright. Don't worry about us, guess that we're getting used to it. Thanks for everything you did to me too.. Well at least I mean it when i say Thank You.

Boyfriend over Family, no offend, its just a random thought!.

Back From DEAD!

GEE! IM back from dead!

i've been very very very busy for these past few months and now.. im finally free..

well no really.. only for the weekend! :( 

Let me RECALL back for what had happened for the past few days/weeks/MONTHS

ERRMM.... oh! 

2 weeks ago! I went to school as usual and I ate a sandwich which was given by Tracy.

But then right... after finish eating that sandwich, oh no.. something bad happen to some part of my stomach area.

Guess what, it was my long time SICKNESS  gastric pain striking me! OUCH!

After minutes of struggling not to puke in front of everyone during our school assembly, i finally ran out of the hall..

Well i din run but instead i walk slowly to the toilet and PUKE! URGHHH it was so so DISGUSTING!
Well, my bestfriends told me that basically i went to school was just to borrow the toilet and puke. HAHA!


Exam is a pure torture for me! I still have 4 papers to go before I can finally shout for FREEDOM!
Hmm.. I just can't wait to finish my exam! =)


AND OH! BEFORE I FORGOT!

A VERY VERY BELATED BIRTHDAY TO
jeng
jeng
jeng
jeng````

KRISTI PUTAL AND FARAH IYLIA!
 Even though the both of you are miles away from KUCHING, we'll still love u guys! <3

AND OH [part 2]
IP MAN 2 WAS WAS INCREDIBLY AWE-AWE-AWESOME!!!
THUMBSSSSS UP! =)

i guess thats all for now =) byess!

BORED

OH MY! How long did I neglected my blog.? :D

Well I guess I just don't have the mood in typing out everything anymore.

Well... holidays are pretty bored for now and I left few more days enjoying sleeping and waking up late every morning! [Sigh]

Life being a Form 4 student is very very HARD and TIRED.

Homeworks keep coming in and it just  cant seem to stop!

I know, we're still student, what can we expect right. 

IM BORED!

IM OUT OF CREDIT!

IM HUNGRY!

IM TIRED!

I hate it when you got nothing to do during the holidays.

Holiday suppose to be fun and enjoys ourself. 

But for me, BS.

Everyday I stuck at home doing houseworks, finishing my homeworks.

Mummy, when are you gonna bring us out cz im 

totally.freakingly.amazingly BoreD!

And yeah!

FARAH's moving. 

Haiz. I wish she's not moving but she is.

She's moving to Mrsm at Betong! 

How Far!

Im gonna miss talking to her early morning at school 

and shares ghost stories too! LOL

Well, I guess thats all for now. 

More posts to come perhaps?[ i dont think so] :)